Sunday, June 10, 2012

I cannot believe how long it's been since my last post. I'm sorry. I think of blogging often, and somehow it doesn't get done.In  the spirit of living my life and not writing about it- I will admit that I don't really feel bad. I've been busy.
BUT - yesterday was my 60th birthday. And that deserves to be written about. I am confused. How did this happen? The Perennial Flower Child is an age, that even in her most honest moments- she finds hard to say out loud. You really don't know how much it took for me to be able to write that down!
 Many years ago I decided that appreciating where you are right now is important. It's easy to dream of the future- it's easy to get lost in the past- but right now can be a challenge. So my belief in the now just had a head on collision with Not Me. 
Friends and family have called to commiserate- congratulate me on this achievement of a new decade. I have had the good luck of being one of the youngest in most of my long-time circles. Family- and friends from 'Back in the Day' . So I've seen others go through this. And learned from them. Of what I do and don't want to do.
I don't want to think of myself as old- as a senior- as a granny. I'm not. My spirit is vital, and I am passionate about many, many things. I'm not cynical- or worn out or negative. I've had a few health things that have gotten in the way of some things I want to do. I guess that I'll never compete in the Olympics, or climb Mt Everest. I may have trouble with a walking tour of Great Britain. And sometimes I worry that if my sons don't find the right girls to spend their lives with and have babies soon- I won't be able to play on the floor with them like I did with Zoe and Noah.
But the flip side of that is really a lot more exciting. I KNOW what I want and who I am. I have a self assurance now that I didn't have for many years. I have time and energy to greet this new chapter in my life with a 'Let's get started' attitude, and more energy at my 60th birthday than I had at my 55th. And that is a trend I intend to embrace.
So. This is MY year to: take my art seriously and produce. To eat healthy and treat my body with a little respect. To love my friends and family with everything I have, while still taking care of Mary.
                                           This will be fun. Wanna come along for the ride?

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