BUT - yesterday was my 60th birthday. And that deserves to be written about. I am confused. How did this happen? The Perennial Flower Child is an age, that even in her most honest moments- she finds hard to say out loud. You really don't know how much it took for me to be able to write that down!
Many years ago I decided that appreciating where you are right now is important. It's easy to dream of the future- it's easy to get lost in the past- but right now can be a challenge. So my belief in the now just had a head on collision with Not Me.
Friends and family have called to
I don't want to think of myself as old- as a senior- as a granny. I'm not. My spirit is vital, and I am passionate about many, many things. I'm not cynical- or worn out or negative. I've had a few health things that have gotten in the way of some things I want to do. I guess that I'll never compete in the Olympics, or climb Mt Everest. I may have trouble with a walking tour of Great Britain. And sometimes I worry that if my sons don't find the right girls to spend their lives with and have babies soon- I won't be able to play on the floor with them like I did with Zoe and Noah.
But the flip side of that is really a lot more exciting. I KNOW what I want and who I am. I have a self assurance now that I didn't have for many years. I have time and energy to greet this new chapter in my life with a 'Let's get started' attitude, and more energy at my 60th birthday than I had at my 55th. And that is a trend I intend to embrace.
So. This is MY year to: take my art seriously and produce. To eat healthy and treat my body with a little respect. To love my friends and family with everything I have, while still taking care of Mary.